all recovered :)

SOOO a week ago I finally got the surgery I have been waiting for. As junior year of high school began to open up, I started noticing my right eye was a little bit more open than my left, but didn't think much of it. Then, the summer before senior year I started noticing that it looked like my left eye was closed when I smile for pictures. NOT GOOD. (especially considering the fact that my friends are crazy picture takers) I made sure to try hard to open my eye real wide for my senior picture and just let it be. You can tell it's saggy, but it was the best I could do.

I wanted it all taken care of before this summer because I don't want a droopy eye in hawaii and I didn't want it for Megan's wedding. Well, I got my wish half way. Last week on Thursday, August 11, I was put under and this is what lovely little Dr. Del Canto did to me. He flipped over my eyelid and tightened the muscle in it. Then proceeded to stitch up some of the tissue and then fold the lid back to where it belongs. I spent the next week icing my eye and let me tell you. It's hard to ice one eye, be able to see out the other, and not have to hold the ice pack there. Needless to say, Sue and I got pretty dang creative- and when I say Sue and I, I mostly mean Sue. We tried to put the bag of peas on my face and then put a sleeping mask on me, but that didn't work because then I couldn't see out of my right eye. Then, Suzy went and bought some kids size hair bands (those stretchy ones that go like around the outer rim of your hair, not like an elastic for a pony tail) and we would criss cross them. It worked quite well until my head stretched them to their limit and they weren't tight anymore. We ended up doing that for about 3 days and on the 4th day, I used an old masquerade mask from zurchars and wore that around with an ice pack under it. I looked good!

This was a conversation I had with Sawyer (3 years old) the day I got my surgery while I had the hair bands and peas on my eye.
Sawyer: Sarah? What are you doing?
Me: I'm in my bed! My eye hurts.
Sawyer: Oh. Cause you are a pirate?
Few minutes later Sawyer comes back into my room.....
Sawyer: Hey sarah? What do you say?
Me: Huh?
Sawyer: Tell me what you say!
Sarah: aaarrrrgggggg
Sawyer got laughing hyserically and played that game the rest of the afternoon, come to find out the next day he woke up asking his mom if he could go "visit the pirate"

I really didn't swell up or bruise too bad. AND my eye didn't really hurt that much but it was SOO itchy. The stitch in my eye felt like a hair that I just wanted to pull out. We went back yesterday and good 'ol doc pulled the stitches out... OUCH!! But it's over. And I'm alive. And I have two normal eyes now!!!!!!! :) :) I shall now try to post a pretty funny picture of myself in recovery.

a new perspective

I have been the most unfaithful little blogger... it will not happen again :) I want to fully blame this on the fact that I cannot figure out how to put pictures on for the life of me.. but thats not completely true. I have been SO busy that any free moment I get, I go running and/or sleep. My apoplogies to all who read..... so I guess, sorry jasmine.

SO I will just give a giant brief overview of my summer. Went on the cruise. Most amazing week ever. LOVED it. If I could spend more time there, I most definately would have. Met some coold people and just embraced the caribbean. Maybe pictures to come later?

Second, I had a birthday. It was a decent day. Just worked. Then, that night the most amazing thing happened to me. Kellie suprised me with all my friends meeting at Cafe Rio for dinner but sitting there across the room was my brothers good friend, Chase. I have been in secret love with Chase for at least 5 years. And guess what he did? Kissed me on the freakin' cheek. It meant nothing to him but sure made my heart flutter. (p.s. I'm not literally in love with him-figure of speech)

What else? I've just been working working working. I found myself a new best friend. She is about 2 feet tall. Short brown hair. 3 years old. Is barely fitting into 2 year old clothes. Mostly wears crocks. Can't eat wheat. And lives to be in the swimming pool. Her name is Charlie and I can't get enough of her. One day, I'll be able to post videos on this thing and you can learn for yourself what a sweetheart of girl she is. She is constantly remind me she loves me, she can sing disney songs, she calls my mom "zoo", and she calls me mom. I will seriously miss her SOOO much when I leave :(

I have been spending so much time with my mom recently and have loved it. She's really great. We always seem to laugh and laugh. First at the fat girl eating her moms soups, next at the girl dressed up at the soccer game with her diet pepsi, next at grandma barton telling me I need to stop by Australia while I am in Hawaii, than at the old lady scooting backwards at the rest home... just everything :) if there was a reason I wasn't moving to Hawaii, it would be because I don't want to be away form Sue, BUT as part of our adventures together today, we watched "Soul Surfer"... I would reccomend it to ANYONE. I cry everytime. There is a big theme in it, not looking at things so closely, but getting a bigger perspective on life. In this movie, she's lost her arm, but she is trying to see the good it can bring out in her. In baby graham's case, he is 8 months old and fighting leukemia, but his family can still have a good attitude about it and know that he will make it through and is acknowleding how much it has brought their family toghether. I want to be able to do that. I feel like I could really grasp a bigger perspective on things. You can really stop reading this if you are bored yet because at this point I am just rambling.

34 days until my big adventure. I. CAN'T. WAIT. New people :) New surroundings :) New school :) crazy bugs :/ cafeteria food everyday :/ BRING IT ON :)

Almost There

Well said Princess Tiana. Well said.

I've always wanted to have something in common with a disney princess and today I figured it out. Princess Tiana. (extra plus, she's brown)

Tiana had a dream. Her dream was to own a restaurant. She had dreamed this since she was little. It was going to take a lot of hard work and sacrifices to do this. She risked friendships and sleep so she could earn money for this restaurant. I am not quite this extreme but.. I have some valuable arguments. I have a wish. My wish is to move to Hawaii, attend BYU there and have the time of my life. I've only dreamed this for about 9 months. It will take lots of work and sacrifices to achieve this. I will risk being away from my family and time spend with friends due to working full time this summer.

"There ain't nothin' gonna stop me now, 'cause I'm almost there". I made it through high school. I really had to push through those last few months but I did it and am as happy as ever. Nothin' could possibly stop me now.

I'm sure I will face my "trials and tribulations". I know I will, but with the help of the man upstairs and some phone calls with my best friend, Sue- how bad could it be? Not bad at all. Not one bit.

Every single one of my posts is about graduating and moving away. I will try to stray from the topic... it's just constantly on my mind.

ITS GETTING CLOSER

AND CLOSER

AND CLOSER

EVERYDAY!!!!!!!

Be looking forward to pictures of Jude and Knoxx comin up on the blog. First day of being their nanny tomorrow :)

until next time,

your soon to be hula dancer ;)

I've been lying this whole time...

As the end of high school is comin' around and I am seriously starting to think about reality, I've been really good about putting my time towards earning money and saving it. I really have. I say to people "I don't shop anymore." I have a confession ladies and gentlemen, it's a lie.

I am addicted to online shopping for "running wear". Cute jackets, tanktops, and all different sorts of pants.... I can't stay away. I don't buy any of it but I could stare and search for HOURS. We all have our weaknesses and this one is mine.

Besdies when I'm not at school, even when I'm not running- I wear my running stuff. It's comfty yet cute. Casual yet not lazy. Anything a girl could ever ask for. I went 4 1/2 days straight wearing a sports bra. Honestly, 4 of the greatest days of my life. Enough support that I'm not in pain.... was that tmi??

Anyway, Clark likes nordstrom, Jazzy likes makeup, and I like workout clothes. That's just how it is. Now I can rest at night knowing that I'm not living a lie.

For the past couple years I have been able to have a job that I love. .. With girls that I absolutly adore. Let me introduce you.... We've got Anna (11), Olivia (6) and Cate (3). These girls are literally the light of my life.... Here are 10 things they have taught me

1. It's okay to be tired. We all need a good nap every once in a while.

2. Frozen yogurt is a good treat at any given moment. It doesn't have to be a special occasion to treat yourself to some ice cream :)

Meet Charlie. I started nannying her about a month ago due to her family's difficult situation and she is about the most adorable little thing anyone has ever met

3. Wear what you want- when you want. Who cares if anyone judges you?






4. Some of the best kind of fun you can have with your best friend is crashin' on the couch with a movie. (this is their cousin- Jayne Ruby. She is Cate's age and they are in best friend love. If I could kidnap anyone it would EASILY be her)

5. There can never be too many bubbles in your bath.

6. It's okay to admit you are cute. Charlie's most used phrase is "you're funny and I'm cute"..... if you heard it, you would melt.

7. Sassy isn't always cute..... but throw on some sunglasses with that sass, and you can get away with ANYTHING.



8. If you fall asleep before bedtime... you are most likely to be cuddled, pajamas put on for you, AND carried to bed. The greatest combination.

9. I can't quite get this very last picture to load but it is PERFECT for this one so I will load it tomorrow (gotta post this tonight or jazz with die). But #9 is that you can cry anytime you feel the need, no matter what the occasion is.

10. If you love- you are going to get love back. It's going to be so hard for me to leave these girls behind when I move..... luckily Charlie's comin' with me. I'll just have to shower the other 3 with packages.

Well... now that I typed up a great post and lost all of it AND couldn't get a video to post up, let's give it another shot.

And the video didn't work. SO before you read any of this, get on youtube and type in "tragedy of first position" and watch it. You will wish there was 19 minutes more of it.

I'm convinced that the girl in this video is me. I truely am. So uncoordiated and so badly wanting to be good at something. My life.

Now that high school is over in 16 days... not that I am counting.... I really am looking back on all that I have done and wonder what I could have done different. Something that sticks out is being more involved. With anything. I would have liked to be on a sports team. I couldn't really get myself to pick a sport and give it my all. So... I didn't.

In the past year I have really learned to love running. I am not really sure why this love came so late in my high school career. I want to run the Honolulu marathon on December 11th aannnnddddd if anyone wants to join, please do :) I ran 6 miles yesterday so... 20 more and we are good to go :) oh boy...

But speaking of sports let's give a big shout out to our lax bros for their win yesterday, yeah? Good job guys, we all wish we could be just like you. Headphones, tall tees, tanks, high socks, pigeon toes. Everything. It's truely a sad thing that not all of us could be like you. Knowing how you reacted when someone draws a picture of you, I'm sure this post is just the most giant compliment ever. Stay sick. I hope it works out for you. Whenever life is getting you down, just remind yourself how awesome you truely are. You'll purk right up.

Anyway.......